Archive | November 2013

GIFTS AND TALENTS! gifts and talents?

Blog Hop, love this.  I love that I get given ideas about what to write about instead of my … meanderings, lol.  Well, this week I realized I wanted to hit all 4 suggestions.  Ambitious?  Nope, they all tie together so well for me.

Psalm 139:1 – You have searched me, Lord, and You know me well.

The Lord knows me so well that He gave me gifts & talents.  He searched me & knew I could be trusted with certain things.  He searched me & decided I was the one to have these particular talents.  He knew these things about me before I was born!  Wow, that’s amazing & so very humbling.

Gifts & talents hmmmm, what are mine?  I had to slow down & think about it.  Slowing down … that’s hard.

I am a Sanguine.  I love having fun, I love people (that’s why I’m in HR).  I get bored really easily, I’m easily … squirrel!  I mean I’m easily distracted.  I’m also Choleric (sounds like a disease).  I like to solve problems, I’m organized & confident.  But, the other side to that is I’m arrogant (I thought I was just confident, yuck), opinionated & manipulative.  That just sounds so negative.  Let’s go back to the good stuff … I’m fun!

I took the test regarding my gifts.  My strengths were faith, exhortation & teaching.  Hmmm, interesting.  Let’s put this all together.

I am a sanguine I love fun.  I am also choleric I like to be involved, lead, I like to move.  I have to confess, the paper method was too slow, I went to the Spiritual Gifts Test page.  Did I mention I am Sanguine/Choleric?  I know God is going to move (faith) I will encourage you while we’re waiting (exhortation) & I will explain why I know (teaching).  I will make all of that happen in a fun way (sanguine) & we’ll go at a faster organized pace (choleric) cause I don’t want to get bored (sanguine).

I enjoy that.  I could do that all over again in a different way if it helps.  No?  Geesh.

Jamy Whitaker posted this Wednesday morning, “We must be intentional about being the person God has created each one of us to be.”  It’s so true.  Do I live my life intentionally?  I don’t know.  I hope so.  But, my next question is what do I do with these talents/gifts?  I’ve been praying about this for days.  But, if finally hit me this morning.  I’m trying to work these gifts in a spiritual way, making them a ministry, making them religious.  But, not all of us are called into ministry!  What if this is just supposed to be the way I live out my life?  Crazy, right?  No, not at all.  God so carefully has everything figured out, intricately, everything having a purpose.

I’m a sanguine/choleric, I like to have fun & people enjoy having fun with me.  It’s all clean, all uplifting.  Living my life for God & others see Him through me (I pray).  I’m friendly, I get excited about the smallest of things, I love being busy, I have lots of energy, if there’s a problem I’ll help you fix it!  I’m in HR when I discipline employees they usually walk away laughing & ready to start over (thank You Jesus).  I won’t force my faith on you but, I KNOW that I KNOW He is alive, I know my God can fix everything.  I will lift you up during hard times & I will gladly share His Word.  I will gladly share everything I know & if I don’t know I will research & get back to you.  I have gifts & talents that God uses daily!  He has put me right where He wants me!  I use my talents for God every day, everywhere, all the time #YesIDo!

If I could chose something different would I?  Sure, the grass is always greener on the other side.  I would do full time ministry.  I would lead children & women.  I would love that but, that’s not the ministry I have at this time.  My ministry is very much in the world & that’s okay.  I have the opportunity to make an impact for Jesus.  I have the opportunity to live my life as if Jesus was coming to pick me up today.  I can make a difference, I can love others the way my Savior loves me.  I’m not as good as He is but, I’ll sure try hard daily, I’ll pray continually.

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Father God, thank You for showing me my gifts & talents.  Thank You for showing me how to use them in a daily manner, in a way that can make a difference for Your Kingdom.  Lord, You know my heart & I pray daily for you to open my heart & mind to Your will.  Keep me free from sin, everyday teach me to be more like Jesus.  I’m Yours Savior, I’m all Yours.  Use me as You would have fit.  Make me an empty vessel that only You can fill.  In Jesus mighty name I pray.  AMEN.

This entry was posted on November 20, 2013. 12 Comments

Change

I’m in a weird place right now. It feels like things are going to change but, I don’t know how or what. I just know this is a season of change. It’s exciting yet, curious.

Is it my weight? That wouldn’t make sense since I’ve been working on that for 6 months. It better be changing. Lol.

Is it our finances? That would be cool. But, we just finished Christmas shopping & birthday season so, no. Unless the change is we’re broke, then yes. Not the change I had hoped for.

Is it my sweetheart’s health? That would be an awesome blessing! I would love it if he were healthy & happy again. I know he would too. Yeah! I like this one.

Is it work? That could be cool. So many directions for that.

Maybe it’s just me who’s changing. Growing in my relationships with God, family, friends or work.

I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s this blog or maybe it’ll be a ministry of some sort. That would be awesome.

I still don’t know.

I still still don’t know & that’s ok. My Savior knows & He’ll let me know when the time is right.

This entry was posted on November 14, 2013. 2 Comments

Unpacking

Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”

“No one, sir,” she said.

“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.” (John 8:10, 11 NIV)

Wow, God forgives me. It seems so easy. But, I know how hard it is to let it go. I sit here & relive my sins over & over. They hit me when I least expect it. I’m putting on my make-up & blamus (it’s a new word, will hit the dictionary some day), I’m cooking, I’m working, you know & all of a sudden there it is my sin relived.  Wait until you read this!

A Confident Heart by Renee Swope page 119 – “I sensed God whispering to me: Renee, I am that gold miner. You are the one who is so critical of yourself. You are the one who focuses on your mistakes & beats yourself up with accusation & condemnation. Those are not My thoughts. I see the gold of My image, woven into your heart when I created you. I want to bring to the surface so others can see it too.”

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Refiner’s fire is hard but, the end result is so worth it.

I always sense He says “let it go, I have”. I laugh, I pray, “Lord, I know you have forgiven me, help me to forgive myself.”  The enemy is a pain in the side!  I have to cast him out regularly.  The enemy is just a bully. The enemy only has the power I allow. Why would I allow him to beat me down? I don’t let anyone else do that? God doesn’t condemn me, He corrects me.  He is gentle, He is a gentleman, He is loving & wants the best for me, He made me an heir to His throne. Tell satan to go away in the name of Jesus! Thank You Jesus. Stop talking bad about a daughter of the King!

I feel confident that The Lord has forgiven me. I’ve let go of a lot too. You see, I’ve learned from my mistakes. I very rarely repeat them (unless it’s my weight or spending, I’m working on both).  I don’t want my mistakes to consume me. They were necessary to develop my character but, they don’t hold me captive any longer. Have you read the Bible? There’s a lot of people in there that have made big mistakes & yet God loved them & used them. Amen.

A Confident Heart by Renee Swope Page 120,  “Jesus knew Peter would fail Him, but Peter’s past & future failures weren’t fatal. They didn’t determine how Jesus saw Peter, or the potential Jesus saw in Peter. It was Peter’s faith in Christ as Messiah & his love for the Son of God that, despite his obvious shortcomings, gave him potential to be used by God.

I LOVE my Savior. He is so forgiving. Peter questioned Jesus regularly. Peter actually said he didn’t know Jesus! Yet, he was used greatly, we still study stuff he did & said. Peter loved Jesus & Jesus loved him too! I want to be used by my Savior. I pray regularly that He will or does. I’m a willing vessel, I don’t care how He uses me, just that I’m usable. I can be used by Jesus. Jesus use me!

Lord, I thank You that You forgive me, that You love me, & that You have called me to be Your daughter. I thank You Lord that the words on this blog will touch someone. I appreciate Father God that You never let me take credit for the things I do, it’s all You. Please, Father God use me. Make me an empty vessel that only You can fill. In Jesus mighty name I pray, Amen.

This entry was posted on November 12, 2013. 12 Comments

Promotion? What promotion?

Matthew 6:1-15 NIV
6 “Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.

2 “So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 3 But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4 so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

Prayer

5 “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. 7 And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. 8 Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.

9 “This, then, is how you should pray:

“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us today our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.’

14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

I’ve read those verses so many times. Isn’t it crazy how you can do that & still have it feel fresh, new, enlightening. I read Proverbs 31’s blog this morning written by Glynnis Whitwer (http://proverbs31.org/devotions/devo/when-nobody-notices-your-work/). She really got me thinking.

I have a full time job that I love … for the most part 😉 But, I’ve been hoping, waiting for a promotion to come around that just hasn’t happened. It’s not even listed as one of our positions but, I keep hoping. For that to happen I need their recognition. Did you hear that? It was the screech of tires from me hearing what I said! Stop Stela, stop! You don’t need their recognition you need the recognition of your Savior, the One who got you your dream job. I don’t work for people I work for my Savior. That’s not to say that an atta girl will be dissed but it’s not necessary it’s nice. When I’m feeling down about the elusive nonexistent position I just need to remember I’ve already been promoted to child of God! I’m a child of God! He chose me! He loves me Just the way I am ❤️ I am perfectly & wonderfully made.

This entry was posted on November 4, 2013. 2 Comments

His Goodness Makes Me … Awesome

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I don’t know about you but, I look in the mirror & I just don’t see what others see. Curly hair, all I see are the frizzies. My eyes have shrunk over the years, they’re not big anymore. I’m fat, not as fat as I was but, still fat. Hmmm.

I didn’t have a say with the curls. It’s taken me years but, I like my curls now. Super easy to style.

My eyes … they’re my Daddy’s eyes. I miss having big eyes but, I miss him more. I have my Daddy’s eyes.

My weight? Ya, I did that to myself. I didn’t rely on my Savior I relied on sour cream cheddar chips, chocolate, ice cream & fast food. Not my best move. That was a definite AM (against me). I’ve been working on that. I’ve lost 44 pounds. I still have a way to go. But, I’m relying on God. Do I do that constantly? No, not at all. The last few weeks have been rough. I’m trying to stay on plan but, everything looks so good it’s hard. I’m believing by sharing this most personal of journeys will give me strength. I KNOW God is for me, I KNOW I can do all things through Him who gives me strength. So, why aren’t I losing weight? Why have I been gaining/losing the same 2 pounds.

My sweetheart suffers with chronic pain. My mom has dementia. I eat. I can’t fix either one of them. Hmmm, bacon? Hot chocolate? Yum yum yum. No no no!

God doesn’t always answer my questions the way I want. Sometimes He says wait or have patience. Yuck. I gained the weight pretty dang easy. Did I mention the chips or my friends Ben & Jerry?

Life isn’t always great, nope, sometimes it kind of sucks. But, I know He’s taking me through His Refiner’s fire. I’m a beautiful child of God who took a wrong turn for a while. Was it adultery, drugs or theft? No. But, I still didn’t bring my issues to Him. For the longest time I didn’t realize that He wants to pause for me, his chosen child. Even if it’s just something like I’m feeling overwhelmed with all of my responsibilities. He wants to help me, to hold me & comfort me.

The other day my awesome OBS leader & sweet sister in Christ Katrina Wylie asked us a question “what is your life verse?” I thought that was so easy! Psalm 31:25! “She is clothed in strength & dignity & she laughs without fear of the future.” A couple of nights later God spoke to me in my dreams. That isn’t my verse, that’s the verse I have become. I take care of everyone & everything. I am strong, I have dignity, I laugh & enjoy life because tomorrow will take care of itself. No, my life verse is Deuteronomy 6:5. He gave me that verse all night, Deuteronomy 6:5, I couldn’t read it though & I couldn’t remember it. I woke up at my normal time, rested & searching for my verse. “Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart, with ALL your soul & with ALL your strength” Deuteronomy 6:5.

My weight? Yep, I still have a way to go but, with God as my Savior I’ll get there. I’m loved by an awesome God, I’m an heir to His throne. He picked me! That makes me a winner! I, me, Stela, love the Lord my God with ALL of my heart, with ALL my soul (not a fraction but ALL) & with every bit of strength I have ALL my strength.

Thank You Father God for always showing me You love me. Thank You for this awesome relationship You have blessed me with. I am so grateful to be Yours. I still have more weight to lose & I know it is all a part of Your plan to build this temple the way You need it. I’m going through Refiner’s fire & I’m celebrating! I love You Father God, I love You Jesus, I love You Holy Spirit. Thank You for always having the best interest in my life. In Jesus beautiful name, Amen.

This entry was posted on November 3, 2013. 10 Comments