Archive | January 2014

Blog Hop? Already?

Most week’s I see the topics for the Blog Hop & my heart starts beating fast, I’m excited, oh my goodness how will I pick my topic.  This week?  Not so much.  I don’t know why, they’re good topics but, I just wasn’t there.  But, after answering questions in chapter 5 of Made to Crave & reading the beginning of chapter 6 I knew what I had to write about. 

 #DETERMINATION

Ya buddy!  I’m determined.  I have so many reasons not to take care of myself.  Dick needs me, I have to do my studies, I’m too tired, cooking, cleaning, laundry blah blah blah!  Who doesn’t have those things to deal with?  Is the whole world overweight?  NO.  Do they all have people to take care of those things?  NO.  I just need to do it!

I should be a Nike commercial … Just do it!

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?  You are not your own; you were bought at a price.  Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 NIV

I suddenly see a girl in black yoga pants, pink top & the cutest pair of pink & black shoes running.  Hey!  That’s MY workout outfit!  I’m working out!  I’m kicking my own butt! 

My eating … hmmmm.  I need to remember that a temple is sacred.  My body is sacred because, it’s not really mine.  I’ve given myself, all that I love, all that I own to my Savior.  He takes much better care of everyone than I do (& trust me, I’m not modest).  I need to trust Him to take care of my nutrition, I need to make Him the object of my cravings.  I need to know that I know that He cares for me & He cares about my health.  I don’t need Devine healing (it would be nice to wake up & be a size 8 but, no).  I don’t need to become obsessed with my workouts & my nutrition.  I NEED TO MAKE GOD MY ALL-IN-ALL!!  I can say it, I think I mean it until … someone upsets me – chocolate, give me chocolate, until I feel I’m behind – chips, I need chips.   Hmmmm, definitely a pattern.  I need to turn to my Savior when those things happen, I need to open His Word & read the truth.

Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared.  This day is holy to our Lord.  Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”  Nehemiah 8:10 NIV

I did a search for “The joy of the Lord is mine” (I can never remember book # & verse).  Nehemiah 8:10 was the first verse that popped up.  I will enjoy CHOICE food & sweet drinks (thank You Jesus for sugar-free Starbucks).  I will enjoy in moderation, I will pray & read His Word before I just wander to the pantry for junk.  God cares about my eating, He loves me.  I worry about my kids having the same weight issues I do so, imagine how much more God cares.

God creator of all cares about me.

This entry was posted on January 30, 2014. 5 Comments

Craving God or Am I

I’m reading Made To Crave by Lysa TerKeurst, again.  I’m going to actually read the whole thing this time.  I’ve read the first 2 chapters & already feel so convicted.  Am I craving things/food more than I crave God?  Uggghhh, I am!

That dark chocolate that tells me “it’s okay, you’ve had a long day & you exercised”.  Bleh.  How is it possible that I’ve made my yo-yo dieting my idol but, isn’t that really what it is?  I’m always on some sort of diet or exercise plan.  But, I don’t normally see success.  Because I’m doing it in my own strength.  I’m not relying on God to do this, I’m relying on whoever is the next great diet/exercise guru.  Well, they can’t help me.  I know where my strength is but, I guess I don’t know how to turn to Him & leave it in His hands.  I go to Him all the time with my desire to be healthy & every time I grab a bag of chips.  What the heck is wrong with me?

You know what’s wrong with me?  I’m Eve’s daughter.  I want to have control, I want to be in charge, I want to be the master of my own domain …  I’m staring at my cursor blinking … the truth hurts … I’m crying … oh Lord!  Please!  Forgive me.

Even as I typed that deep down I know it’s still an issue.  I prayed but, now will come the hard work.  Give my eating & exercise to Him & stop doing what I’ve always done.  High protein, low carbs, low calories, journal your food Stela, let’s try plyo, no let’s dance, how about intense weight training …. arrrrggghhhh!  I’m already sitting here thinking of what I should do that would please God but, I know it’s the same stuff done all these years!!!!

Father God, I come to you begging for you to change me.  I DO want to be healthy, I DO want to be strong.  Please, Lord, I don’t want to end up like my mom with dementia because she didn’t take care of her blood sugar & I don’t want to be like my sweetheart’s mom in a wheel chair because of weight issues.  Please, Lord change me.  Change my desires, change my mind, my heart & my desire to be in charge of me.  I need you, this is impossible for me but, I KNOW that nothing is impossible with you.  I love you Lord with all of my heart & I am so grateful for all the things You have allowed me to do & to be.  But, this one area of my life Lord has been an never ending cycle that I desperately want to change.  I thank You Father God for loving me, taking care of me & for changing me into the woman You have chosen me to be.  In Jesus name, Amen.

This entry was posted on January 23, 2014. 5 Comments