Archive | October 2015

A Calling

A calling.  You know that feeling?  When you feel God is saying He wants you to go into the world & do something?  But, you question yourself.  Is this really God or is it me wishful thinking.  Like when I was a kid (this morning) singing in front of the bathroom mirror imagining a stadium full of people, lol.  Thank goodness that’s not my calling.

2 Peter 1:10-11 ESV - Therefore, brothers, be all the more diligent to make your calling and election sure, for if you practice these qualities you will never fall. For in this way there will be richly provided for you an entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

“Make your calling & election sure” I think that’s where I’m stuck.  It feels so real in my heart, I’ve dreamt about it but, how?  How do I go & do it?  I know … you wonder the same things.  God has called each of us to a time, a season.  The cool part is we don’t have to know how, we just need to have faith.  If God has called us to it, He will bring us through it.  I never thought I would be involved in a ministry like Proverbs 31 Ministries.  I never thought I would be teaching others about leading women to Christ.  I thought I would teach children’s church forever.  But, God (I love that phrase).  But, God had a better plan.  He drew me through a desert, made my faith grow, made me more dependent on Him.  He prepared me.  The only thing I did was lean on Him.  I stayed in faith, I stayed in prayer.  That’s it.  Can it really be that simple?  YES.

Galatians 3:6-9 Consider Abraham: “He believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness.” Understand, then, that those who believe are children of Abraham.  The Scripture foresaw that God would justify the Gentiles by faith, and announced the gospel in advance to Abraham: “All nations will be blessed through you.” So those who have faith are blessed along with Abraham, the man of faith.

I believe God.  That Man doesn’t lie. Because I believe His Word, because I have faith, I am righteous. Righteous people have callings. I’ve been called!

Matthew 6:33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you as well.

I’m still not sure about this specific calling but I’m sure that my God has a better plan than me. I have faith & that faith tells me when the time is right it will happen. I just have to wait (can you hear my foot tapping?). 😉  Yep, I still need to work on patience.  Lol.

Grow

Mark 4:2-8 Jesus taught them many things, using stories. He said, “Listen! A farmer went out to plant his seed. While he was planting, some seed fell by the road, and the birds came and ate it up. Some seed fell on rocky ground where there wasn’t much dirt. That seed grew very fast, because the ground was not deep. But when the sun rose, the plants dried up because they did not have deep roots. Some other seed fell among thorny weeds, which grew and choked the good plants. So those plants did not produce a crop. Some other seed fell on good ground and began to grow. It got taller and produced a crop. Some plants made thirty times more, some made sixty times more, and some made a hundred times more.”

 

There are seasons, seasons of hardship, seasons of pure joy, seasons of growth.  I’m not a kid, I’m a grandma!  Yet, I feel I’m in a season of growth.  I love that!  God can take us at any age & help us grow!  I’m so hungry for His Word, for prayer time with Him, to be used by Him.  Did you read the last sentence in the verse I shared?  “Some plants made 30 more, some made 60 times more & some made a 100 times more.”  Holy cow!  Can you imagine if God used you & me to make a 100 times more?  Then used each of them to make another 100 times more!  Heck, I’m excited when He uses me to touch 1.  But, that’s the beauty of our God.  He made us, he knows how many hairs on our head, he had a plan for each of us before He made the world!

Ephesians 1:4 Even before He made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in His eyes.

 

I’m a humble woman, I know my worth but, I know it’s not me.  It is Christ IN me.  He uses even my weaknesses.  How glorious to be used by the One that created us.  I want Him to use me more!  I think this is one time it’s ok to be greedy, lol.  I don’t want it for my glory but for His.  Now, I’m not saying it doesn’t feel great when you know He has used you cause that would be a lie!  But, I feel that someday I will be with Him in heaven & He’s going to show me a film, a film about my life.  It will show me the people He used me to reach.  I won’t even know that I did anything, I was just me.  Writing a post, holding a door open, praying, maybe just smiling, I don’t know.  But, our God is wonderous like that, He can take the most minute thing & turn it into something glorious!  Look at the mustard seed!!  It’s so small yet so big!

 

If I continue to live a life where God is at the head, where I reach out to Him before I allow a sound to leave my lips, I wonder how much He will use me.  I just want to be conduit for Jesus.  A tool He uses to touch the life of many.  I pray that when people see me or read something I’ve written they don’t see me in it at all just Him. 

Starting Over

Its been quite a while since I wrote on my blog, this blog, here. I enjoy writing I think I just allowed myself to get distracted. But, God has a way of making things clear, of reminding us of what we need to do. This is something I’m supposed to do. 😊

I’ve been busy. Taking care of my sweetheart & my mom & forgetting about me. I made sure I made time for God, I thought but, did I really? Lately I’ve been making my time with Him more of a priority, like breathing. I’m journaling my prayers, I’m finding scriptures that talk to my prayers, I’m writing them down, praying them into my heart & mind. I’m being purposeful about my relationship with my Creator. I put a lot of time & effort into my relationships with my sweetheart & our family. I make sure to find time to be with them, to talk with them, to listen to what they have to say. But was I doing that with God? I prayed everyday but, was it more of a wish list? God, give me … Hmmm. God, fix this … uh oh.  I don’t go to my family that way. So, I’m changing. I’m doing things differently. I’m making my self open, vulnerable to my Savior, I’m asking Him to change me, use me, take me, do whatever You need to me. I’m hearing Him now. I mean I hear His soft voice IN me! He’s such a gentleman, He waited until I invited Him. I never want that to go away. That means I will need to stay purposeful about this relationship, I will have to choose every moment to call out to Him. I must be purposeful & choose Him.

I’ve always loved Jesus. I can’t remember a time when I didn’t. But does that mean I’ve always been in relationship with Him? I don’t think so. Think about it, I know my baristas. They are super nice people that give me a cup of the best coffee EVER. I talk to them on a regular basis but how well do I know them? I know one of them has twins, I know where he goes to church, he’s a friend but, the others? Have I taken the time to get to really know them? No. I don’t think they expect me too but Jesus does. He expects me to read His Word, He expects me to pray without ceasing.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 ESV – Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

2 Timothy 3:16-17 – All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be competent, equipped for every good work

I have to be intentional. I have to choose to follow Jesus. I have to choose to speak with him without ceasing. He chose me.   Wow!  HE CHOSE ME!!!  Thank You Jesus!  I choose You too.